Tuesday
Tonight, I was
standing at a gas station pump filling my ancient car with
gasoline. I started to feel worried. The gasoline was $5.49 a
gallon and I can very well recall — easily recall — when it was
25 cents a gallon and when you could get a fine steak dinner at the
best restaurant in my home town, Washington, D.C., for
$5.49.
I was just getting over a bad flu that had left me
exhausted. A close friend was marking the one year anniversary of
his wife’s death and he’s miserable. Half the people I know cannot
sleep at night worrying about money and their futures.
What if this recession NEVER ends? The Great Depression
only really ended with total mobilization to fight World War II.
What if ours is like that? What if Iran gets the bomb? What if
there is a total meltdown in the Eurozone?
What if this thing that’s always itching on my back is
cancer?
And then a miracle happened. An incredibly pleasant breeze
blew off the desert and washed me with the smell of desert wild
flowers. Two college kids walked by and started to jump up and down
and shout “Bueller, Bueller.” One of them said, “Like man, you’re
the smartest guy there is.”
“I’m not that smart,” I said. “I worry all the
time.”
“Well, you’re always really amusing on TV and it cheers up
my whole family.”
Then a young girl in a blue dress came over and wanted a
picture with my old car because they don’t make this kind of car
anymore and she smiled because she’s a car buff.
I thought, “What a dope I am for worrying and complaining.
I have plenty to eat. I’m not getting shot at in Burma or Belgium
in World War II. I’m not being deported to a death camp. I get to
live in this great, great country and have my freedom, even if I
don’t have a lot of time left. I have the best wifey on the planet.
My parents got married in the depths of the Depression and were
pretty happy even though they couldn’t afford to eat at fancy
restaurants. I can learn from them.”
I cannot control the recession. But I can be grateful to
Providence for letting me have the best life anyone can have — a
life of gratitude for being alive and fairly well in America in
2012. That would be truly smart. Really, really smart.